The Art of forgiveness/ Summer Mini Vacation
I posted earlier on Facebook about Gavin forgiving me for punishing him for something that was out of his control…he was sweet and told me “I was still his best buddy”.
There is something just so pure about kids, they forgive, they forget, they move on, they say what is on their minds, they have no filter and it is still socially acceptable…my filer is a tad off kilter, but I try to work on it.
I am not a grudge holder, if there is a fight or disagreement I like to be able to eventually move on, forgive and have peace. I do not want my kids to hold anger, and lets face it they are part Sicilian and we Sicilians are grudge holders! Except me, seriously….
In recent years I have been in the unfortunate falling out with a family member, it is sad, we are both at fault, both have said hurtful things to each other…what we both have NOT been doing is moving on. I have tried to apologize for my part, I have then accepted defeat but yet I am still being poked and prodded at for a reaction, whether is it mocking me for liking Real Housewives “because they show women in a bad light”, or loosely referencing my Twitter activity….to writing a whole blog post in my honor. I know all these things because I do “snoop” on Twitter from time to time(and she clearly looks at mine)
I can honestly say I cannot even tell you at this point what the fight is about anymore it has been going on for years! What I can tell you is I just want peace, we have a family reunion this weekend and to my knowledge said family member will not be attending….and what is sad is the sense of relief I feel that it will in fact be a positive day and not one that I have to feel like I am walking on eggshells. It is just upsetting that if this reunion was say, 5 years ago we would have had a blast and soaked in all the funny moments to then re-live over email during a boring work day. I feel for our parents who are very distraught over the falling out, and I feel for us and our children who do not know each other and the years of memories lost. I think I can speak for her when I say she feels no loss, it is evident. But I do, I truly feel bad how it all went down. It is unfortunate, it is sad.
It makes me happy to know that my 4 year old knows the art of forgiveness, it is a rare trait in a world filled with so much negativity and it is one that will give him much peace in the future.
To quote Ms. Tina Turner “I don’t care who’s wrong or right, I don’t really want to fight no more”.
On a positive note, We are beyond excited in our house for the reunion, it is the kick off to our much needed vacation week. Chris’ new schedule has been beneficial but also has taken some getting use to(ie we are slightly drained)! We are heading to Maine for a few days to where I use to spend my summer vacations(I won the NY war, but next summer we will be Jamestown bound)…it literally takes my breath away with excitement when I think about how much fun Gavin is going to have, Olivia will just laugh at Gavin the whole time, right now we are in the stage that all she does is laugh. I love it.I am excited for the memories being made… I cannot wait to follow up with pictures and stories of the upcoming week….life is good.